Roslou

One of my favorite actors.   John Shea (Lex Luthor  Lois & Clark) 


Today I was in pain.. I had to get a shot. Which made my arm hurt real bad.  It's soar more than anything.  I'll live though.  Last time I posted I was sad stressed and depressed.  Well now believe it or not.  My crazy life lol  has returned to NORMAL.  David and I are back together and we are doing fine.  Lately I haven't been online.  My dad was very sick in July.  When I had went home to georgia for like 2 months. I took nothing but DRAMA, HELL and above all BS.  I had to endure all this from this ex friend of mine.  I sometimes wish I could beat the hell out of her.  She is the main reason why I lost one of my bestest friends.  She's done things to me where the girl deserves to get her ass kicked and I am not kidding.  When I had returned home from Virginia.  I had no intentions of ever communicating with that bitch.  I had been upset and angry.  Her mother however wanted me to be friends with her.  To get along for the sake of her child.  Whatever the hell that meant.  I am no relation to her, never have and I'm glad I never was.  Anyhow she started laying on all kinds of atamtoms on me.  I had no intentions of ever contating her.  This was all her mothers.  But I can tell ya it didn't last long.  

My dad went into ICU in the begining of July.  He didn't come home until 4 weeks later.  He went through a very terrible ordeal.  And Leann the bitch I am talking about.  Nor or her mother seem to take my father's sickness serious.  My grandma had to leave for Atlanta.  So being so sad and scared about my dad.  I stayed with Ollie (Leann's mom)  I had left a pair of $9.00 purple shades there before. When she had a birthday party. And Ollie takes my shades and claims them.  Knowning that they were mine.  So I got pissed at that. But that doesn't even top it.  When I was trying to talk with the nurse about my dad.  Ollie was running her mouth and I couldn't hear the nurse.  I couldn't understand what the nurse was saying.  So I  was very angry and upset.  I mean I don't understand older people sometimes.  When they are making a important phone call.  You have to respect them.  But when you are on the phone making a important call.  Since they think they are older and they are the boss.  They can't respect you.  I was ready to go home than.  I got so damn tired of her.  She was driving me up the wall.  So to make a long story short.  I had a friend for 13 to 14 years.  This friend and me never fought.  When I came home one time from Virginia I was voneable and very depressed.  Leann was telling me that the girl that was my best friend wasn't really a true friend.  She said alot of things that made me hurt a friend.  And now the person won't talk to me.  She won't have no contact with me.  And I'm so hurt and sad over it.  And I didn't mean those things.  I was just badly influenced by  the wicked witch of the west.  So if you are reading this.  Please know that I am very sorry. I can understand why you don't want to talk to me anymore.   But we were friends for 13-14 years.  We went to church together.  I don't want to lose that. I hope one day  she can find it in her heart to forgive me.   I wasn't myself last year.  I was a different person.  And I truthfully didn't mean anything I said.  If she wants to be mad at anyone.  Be mad at her.  I don't think she would have said that.  If she wasn't so Jealous.  And I hope one day that my lost friend whom I am so so sorry that I hurt.  That I really had no intentions of saying anything like that.  I hope one day she will contact me and let me know how she is doing.   I miss her alot.  

Moving Along....

The last few weeks have been peacefull.  Before than I had to endure and take a bunch of harassing phone calls.  You see for years I let these people dominate me.  They were nothing but controling freaks.  They never respected me.  Ollie tried to tell me where I should live.  She was like "Well I want you to move to Thomson so I can keep a eye on you"  WHAT?  I am almost 27 years old.  I don't need a babysiter.  I was pissed at that.  She said many things that really pissed me off.  I just ingored and ingored it like I did for years.  But after I returned home.  I through my hands up and said that was the end of it. a lot of people tried to warn me.  Even the friend I lost because of that bitch.  She tried to tell me.  And I know I wouldn't listen.  But I really got tired of their actions.  And what really made me so angry and just blow up was my dad.  My dad is the most important person in the world.  Him and David that is.  And I just couldn't take the treatment that they gave me.  So I made up a excuse to go home early.  I told Ollie that I had to go home because David was moving the stuff back down.  And I had to clean the room up.  Well as soon as I got dropped off.  I felt as if I wanted to jump up and scream and say " I"M FREE"  But I wasn't excactly free.  The next few days I would blow up.  David came 2 days later and we made up.  He took me to see my dad. Because I was so worried and scared. Because I had no idea what was going on with my dad.  Than David had to enroll in the school.  Than I talked him into taking Leann's damn table to her.  I was so sick and damn tired of hearing about that damn table.  She go on about that she never get it back.  We didn't return all because of the table.  We returned because I also wanted to visit with Donnielee (Leann's aunt) Her and me are very close.  She knows how Leann is and doesn't blame me.  She was very proud of what I'm about to say.  As we came into South carolina state line. We pulled over to the rest area.  And Ollie called but I ingored her call. Than Leann calls and I tell her that  I have her table.  I also tell her that I am pissed off  at her mom.  I also told Leann through myspace.  That I had NO intentions of ever being her friend.   I was merly testing to see if that bitch could change.  like  HELL no! I don't know what it is about me.  I guess I have a big heart for people.  I do with all people.  So if you have ever heard me complain and than go back to being a person's friend.  It's because I have a big heart.  But if you have heard me go on and on about Leann.  Than I can understand why you would be tired of hearing it.  My friend that I lost also was tired of hearing it.  And I don't blame her there.  

Anyways Ollie had gotton on the phone.  I chew her out.  She swore up and down that I used her cell-phone to make long distance calls to Atlanta on my dad.  The calls I placed were on my phone.  I had the numbers in the phone to prove that I had made those calls.  I did not use her phone.  I remember I had used it one time.  That was because of her.  She wanted me to call Leann.  The woman went totally insane. She yelled like she always does.  And called me a g** damn liar.  And so  I blue up.  I gave it all back to her.  And it was slient for a minute.  I guess she couldn't believe that I dish it right back to her.  I said "No, your a g** damn liar"  And it was quiet.  Than she said "You can't talk to me like that" And I said "Oh yes I can".  And Than I told her "Don't you ever call my phone again you bitch"  

HAHA  I was pissed off.  I had to sit down I was that pissed off.  I was so angry. If my dad didn't have seizures or he didn't worry so much. I love to see his expression after telling him the way they acted when it came to his welfare.  If he saw them he chew them out.  Than Leann calls soon after and says "Well I know now you probably won't bring me my table.  But if there are any scraches on it. I will be serverly pissed" And I was like "What? I told David about it. And he said "They were scraches on it when she gave it to us.   And I called her voice mail back and I told her.  "You gave us the table, you insisted on giving it to us.  Therefore we are not responsible for it"   Later she said "Well I know there were probably scraches on it anyways so It's okay"  You see what I mean?  She had alot of nerve to say such shit.  When We were bringing the table all the way from Virginia to Georgia.  So the whole evening. I had to endure phone calls.  Her mother called and called. And I ingored the calls.  They went to voice mail. And she would say "Amanda how could you do me this way"  Me do her wrong? when they had been doing me wrong for years.  It as about time I lost my temper.  It was long over due.......

I was going to bring her the table by her house.  But I had told Leann that if there were any trouble or she and Dennis tried to start a scene. I would call the police.  Boy did I want to take a swing.  Well we agreed to meet at my grandma's house.  Well we were there and up early.  However she was late.  She didn't waist anytime.  She gave me my doll and she got her table.  Because I told her if she didn't bring me my doll. I would not give her her table.  So she did.  And she knew than to leave.  She knew I wanted to beat her ass.  If David or my brother hadn't been there.  That would have been my chance.  Than she wanted to tell me before that I shouldn't have talked to her mom like that.  She really had alot of nerve to say that.  When I could go all day on how ugly and dirty she has treated her mom.  And I told her not to even go there.  Anyways it finally died down a few weeks ago.  And I was relieved.  Now they are trying their best to turn all my friends against me.  Leann went on saying that she was my only true friend.  Several other friends were furious at this.  They were pissed off.  And I wouldn't be surprised if one of them doesn't approach her in person and chew her out for her actions.  Anyways it's finally over.  I had closed the door on that family.  My grandma told me "You can't change those people, they will never change"  And I know some of you think "Oh you will all work it out"  I wanted to end it. And I wanted to be the one to explode.  I needed to express myself and get my feelings out.  There is no changing in people like that.  I tried to long, I am too tired of mindless people.  That want to be in control of your life.  I have better friends than them.  And I have waisted to much time.  I was too hurt over the way I was treated.  My dad comes first my family comes before them. I pretty much made that decison 2 years ago.  But Amanda needed to get the last word. 

Lately I've been so busy; I have been getting up around 5 am mon-thurs.  I have a cat now.  Her name is lindy Lou.  And she is so loving and so sweet.  She just loves David and I.  We adopted her from petsmart.  If you have me as a friend on myspace.  You can see the photos of Lindy.  Today was Lindy's birthday she is 12 months old today. 

Well I have to make me some dinner.   My arm continues to hurt. 

-Ros

I just wanted to drop by to say hello.  It's been a very long time since i posted. Alot has happen since that time.  My boyfriend/finace and me have called it quits.  This time for good.  I was sad, but not that sad. because I had taken enough of his poor mistakes and his actions.  If you know me, and know what I went through before with him. You would say "What are you crazy?" The fact of the matter is, I had alot of stuff up here.  Alot of money was involved. So I had to try to work things out, For all the wrong reasons I will add.  This has been a complete nightmare for me.  I'm not much active at this time.  

I will be coming home along with my stuff soon.  I don't know when or how soon.  But I am coming back to georgia.  

Hello to my friends, and to visitors.  Please say prayers for me.  

Thank you for your attention :) 

Regards, 

Roslee

I've been sick the last 5 weeks.  I am now getting over it.  And I feel great.  In the begining I was having bowel problems.  Where I couldn't produce a bowel movement.  I was having stomach pain.  I went to the doctor and learned and had some tests ran.  My test results came back negitive. Before I went back to the doctor. I started developing lumps on the side of my neck.  We thought it was my thyroids, but we learned that it was a stalf infection. The doctor gave me some medicine, which made me feel worse when I learned that I had to crunch up the meds in my mouth.  Now I feel alot better and I'm back in control of my life.  Before I could't be around, I trying my damniest to respond to messages and emails. And I was getting tired and always sleeply.  But now I'm alerted and back to being ME:)  

I will post another entry in a few days, when I have more to report.  The biggest and sadiest news that I can't forget is the passing of Roy Scheider. 

Roy Scheider dies at 75

What' so strange about my sickness is that Actor Roy Scheider passed away.  And he had this infection which was the sadiest thing that has happen this year.  He was a hero to me, I remember the first time watching Jaws. I thought he was so cute and adorable.  I thought of him as a hero, because he was the hero.  And a great icon.  I had tears and not just me but this was a hard shake for all the fans that loved this actor.  It's still hard for me to accept.  Even though we can see him in the movie.  We are still reminded that he is gone.   I hope the chief is up there with my mom having a Jawzie toast. 
































The River


You know dream is like a river 
ever changing as it flows 
And a dreamers is just a vessel 
That must follow where it goes 
Trying to learn from what's behind you 
Never knowing what's instored 
Makes each day a constant battle 
Just to stay between the shores... 

I will sail my vessel long 'till the river runs dry 
LIke a bird apon the wind 
These waters are my sky 
I'll never reach my destination 
If I never try 
So I will sail my vessel 
'till the river runs dry 

Too many times we stand aside 
Let the water slip away 
And what we put off till tomorrow 
It is now comes today 
So don't you set on the shoreline 
And say your satisfied 
Choose chance the rapids 
And dare to dance that tide 

I will sail my vessel long 'till the river runs dry 
LIke a bird apon the wind 
These waters are my sky 
I'll never reach my destination 
If I never try 
So I will sail my vessel 
'till the river runs dry 

There's bound rough waters 
And I know I'll take some falls 
But with Chief Brody as my captain 
I can make it through them all 

I will sail my vessel long 'till the river runs dry 
LIke a bird apon the wind 
These waters are my sky 
I'll never reach my destination 
If I never try 
So I will sail my vessel 
'till the river runs dry 


I will sail my vessel till the river runs dry 

Yeah... 




"Show me the way to go home, I'm tired and I want to go to bed. I had a little drink about an hour ago, and it's gone right to my head. Wherever I may roam, land or sea or foam. You can always hear me singing this song...." 

This entry is decaded to Roy Scheider, may his work and and his life live on and on

Toast to the Chief..... He will always be rememberd...  

-Roslee

 It's mightnight here, And I thought I make a quck entry here. Before heading to wash dishes.  Tomorrow I have to go to the doctor for a appointment.  I rather not disclosed it here, Lets just say I have been having trouble using the bathroom.  And I've been having to watch what I eat. I'm also getting nots on my face and neck. And I got this iritating one that is on my chin.  God I don't know what is causing them. And they hurt so bad.  David and I have been going through hard times.  The place we live is so expensive, I wish we could move to another place.  We are so behind on everything. And I have taken stress from this. But hopefully thing will get better soon. 

I have a new website, I don't know if I mention it before. I also have a message board as well. If anyone is wondering, David and I plan to move up west after he gets his settlement.  I look forward to this, because living in the east is so expensive.  

I have been lazy lately, mainly because I'm sick right now.  I want to thank those that have sent emails, and messages. Your concerns and your thoughts are really apperiatetd.  There is a New Jaws board. I am glad that a new one was added. We needed a board where DRAMA would not be allowed. And moderators to stop it, if it does happen.  I see that on Jawsmovie and also Spielburgfilms. No one wants to follow the rules, and it seems like you get bashed for everything on Jawsmovie.  Now that there is a New Jaws board. It's a new begining and a place that I can called home.  

Well I just wanted to pop in and say hello,  I will post another entry soon, maybe tomorrow evening.  Right now I got to get started on my dishes.  

Best Wishes, 

Roslee

Well it's been a very long LONG time, Alot has happen since I last posted to my journal, So that everyone knows.  David and me are back together and are getting married next year sometime.  We are happy and doing well.  It's been very busy time for me, where I couldn't make it to post on my journal, anyways David and I were in the mountains this weekend.  And it was such a wild 2 day event.  

Day 1 

We are leaving for Norton, Virginia.  David however KNEW of all the high roads, and told me "Ah it will only take 5 hours to get there. We are leaving the house around 11:30 or 12:00 pm.  He says we should arrive in Norton around 5pm.   He was WAY off!  We had to go through so many towns, and by the time we got to the mountains, It felt has if I was on a rollercoaster,  I was taking pictures along the way.  But I was getting tired of all the sharp turns that he was making.  I've always had a phobia of curves. Mainly because of the terrible accident I went through when I was 15 years old.  Anyways We stopped in Lychburg, VA for something to eat.  He kept pulling out the map every 30 mins, to see where we were.  We had to make bathroom stops, and than we rode and rode.  We stoped at eat supper at Wendy's.  yeah we didn't have money to  be eating at Shoneys or some fancy Restruant.  As we reach the mountains, we end up getting lost, and going in circles, and this continues for several hours,  We tried stopping at several motels to see if there was one open, The first one we stopped at was closed. They had closed around 8pm.  I tried to tell David that we needed to get a room before it got to late, But he wouldn't listen like always, and kept going.  We stopped in this town called "Clintwood" Which I called it "Clint Eastwood hehe"  And that motel was closed for that night.  And he said "They sure close early,  It's was like 12 or 1 am in the morning when we stopped.   We here we go riding around in circles,  I am so exhasted, and so is he.  We stopped at the huddle house in Clintwood after circling around again.  And the waitress wasn't that helpful. But she told him of the living expense. Which is alot cheaper,  I was very surprised at that.  I figured it would be very high to live in the mountains. But it's not, It's alot cheaper than living where we are.  So we will probably move up to norton in 2 weeks probably.   Anyways we ate something at the huddle house, and than went out and got lost, and lost and lost again.  I can't tell you how tired and it felt like riding on a rollercoaster over and over.  Than fog started to appear, and I began to get really scared, and I beged him to pull over and lets rest and go to sleep at the church.  Well we tried that, and this dog next door started barking and wouldn't shut up, So we had to move on.  And finally found the main road, and almost went back into clintwood.  David stopped by this gas station, I think a mile before you getinto clintwood. And the girl at the station, told him the same thing that the lady at huddle house told him.  Whatever they were telling him.  I don't think he was listening lol.  Well by this time it was getting close to 3 am.  We were tired and exhansted. I told him we needed to pull over and get some rest.  I was telling myself I wished there had been a place to pull over and rest.  Before we got back on the road we were supossed to get on.  We ended up on this road that lead to a state prison.  I just wanted to SCREAM lol.  I never felt so lost in my entire life.  Well after that we got back on the road, and we found a motel on the left that was open.  So to our relief the place was open, and we got a room.  We didn't get to sleep until 4am.  And we overslept, David complained about the bed, And I was thinkin' "Well I'm glad we had some place to sleep.   "At least next time, you'll know when you want to rent a motel room, to get it before 9pm lol.  And he agreed.  

Day 2 

We woke up around 11am.  And the motel man was knocking on the door, telling us it was our limit.  We both had overslept.  We both were very tired.  We got up and got ready to leave,  David stopped by this store and got him some coffee.  I got me a chicken biskit and diet coke.  We than headed for Norton,  Yeah we didn't get lost today lol.  We got a paper in norton, we knew we had to go ahead and get back home.  I told him I didn't want to be getting home too late, After what happen,  I wanted to be home as early as possible.  Plus we didn't have alot of money, And we didn't have money to stay in another motel.  Anyways we stopped and made some pictures, I took some pictures of sitting on the rocks, david and I took pictures, of christmas in this town.  I took some pictures with the trains.  It was fun and exciting.  We were so hungry but couldn't eat, because we didn't have money, we had to save the money we had left for gas to get us home.  So we had a long... I mean LONG LONG trip home.  And I was so terriofied of the roads we had to take,  It was curve after curve.  I told him "When will we be out of the mountains" because I was getting sick to my stomach.  I really like the montains, but I didn't want to be riding a rollercoaster all the time.  That scared me the most. And the area where david pulled over for us to take pictures of.  We were really up high, and he was saying "Oh we are already down the mountain"  down hell... We were standing on top of the mountain and he wanted me to take pictures of the lands and so on. I was so nervous and yeah okay I was a BIG baby.  I litterly almost cried,  I like to be on the ground, not in the air lol.  So I didn't feel so comfortable about being 4,000 feet up okay!  We finally left and continued on our way home, I feel asleep by the time we were 100 miles from being home.  When we got 30 min from home.  We were in South Hill.  We stopped there and eat supper and than got some gas. And headed on to the house.  We arrived at the house around 9pm.  And it was good to be home.  


Today I was very tired and exhasted,  I didn't do much except updating my message board.  I made a pumkin pie the evening.  And it was delishous.  Well we will probably move  to norton, It was beautiful place, and the moutanins were beautiful. It's just the riding and those rollercoaster riding wasn't my cup of tea...... 

Well I'm must retire to my bed... 

-Roslou

I will be updating my journal here very soon! Check back soon there is alot for me to tell, It's been a very long time. Since I have been here.  


I read a poem to a horse

It's the day and the time 

I've had dreams for plans 

Don't bother me 

I've got something on my mind 

I've already told you that my hips don't lie 

It's Illegal to break my heart 

Costume always makes the clown 

Whenever, wherever were meant to be together 

Ocatvia Dia on my mind 

You got to roll me and call me your tumbling dice

Roslee is a jumpin' jack flash 

I miss you 

Just gimme shelter you bitch 

I had some brown sugar for breakfast 

-R

 

Roslee Returns

After a long time of being away, I thought I drop in and write a few lines.  I don't even know where to begin, or where to start.  My last entry was about Matt Ross's birthday.  And I haven't posted since than.  Well I didn't have a good year last year.  My birthday is coming in 2 weeks. And I really don't know how to be happy about it. It's the first birthday I have had.  Where I wasn't happy at all.  Where I didn't even want a birthday. My life a few months ago was a disaster.  And now things are better, I'm just sad at times, because I don't see how I have made such foolish mistakes.  And in 2 weeks I will be 26.  And I am afraid of what will happen next. What will I do next, that is stupid.  

I guess it's part of growing up,  A few months ago my whole world was upside down. And I felt like being in a hurricane.  I had no power or no control to pull myself out of it.  I thank god everyday that he helped me get home.  And that I am no longer trapped or whatever.  me and my sweet friend are once again close.  And hopefully by the fall of next year.  We will meet, that is the plan.  

Leann had her baby on  April 4,2007.  I wasn't there when the baby was born.  And that was yet a mistake made by me.  I wish I had been there with her.  But I felt like I wasn't needed.  Just like now, I feel like I am in the way, I feel at my age now, that I am useless, I know the feeling of down and emotional will pass.  I just feel guilty of many things,  things I wish never happen.  I guess in time it will all go away.  I will find peace with myself.  But for right now, I don't feel peace, I feel pain.  doing what I did effected other people in my life.  

Moving On 

The Indiana Jones movie is coming out next year at the end of may.  It is supossed to be finished by memorial day.  So I can't wait to see this,  I told Leann I take her to see it for her birthday.   I wasn't so excited about this movie when it first started it's production.  But now I am very excited about the resent news regarding "Indiana jones and the kingdom of the crystal skull" 

Well I must go,  I hope to do some work on my website and have some updates.  I will make another entry next week! 

Ros

Happy Birthday Matt Ross!!!!! 

Matt Ross turns 37 Jan 3, 2007  

A big happy birthday from Roslee.   Matt Ross has been my favorite actor since 02. He should be a great imspiration to all young actors that have started out like he did.  He is known as a actor, director and writer. He wrote "Launage of Love"  Which he wrote and directed.  According to his brother. It was a short film. My name Roslee comes from this great actor.  Matt Ross is has played in many great films. He is known for playing strong charaters roles.  You may have seen him in  "American Psycho, Just Visiting, Rose Red, Down with Love,  The last days of disco, Company man, The Aviator, Good Night and good luck, Last Holiday, And Big Love.  

I have always admired this actor.  I first saw him in Rose Red.  And I have loved his acting and his work eversince.  A great man and gorious!!!! 

A big happy birthday to Matt Ross!!!!! 

ROS

And it's been a long long time....

Well, It's been a long...long....long time.  I thought I come and update my journal before I retire to my bed.  Last entry I made.  I spoke of moving.  Well I moved saturday.  And it has done nothing but rain the past 3 days.  And I have caught something.  I haven't really been online too much.  I haven't been active at all.  I took a long absence.   I was only on messenger for someone special to me.  With the stress and the way my breathin was going. I didn't feel like being online.  I'm doing much better though.  If I haven't spoken to you, please forgive me. It's just been very stressful lately.  And I just haven't been doing well.  And now it looks like I got a cold now.  And I'm trying to rid it off.  Plus I've been spending alot of time with Leann.  Which I have enjoyed.  Last week I spent wednesday night with her.  And spent thursday with her.  We had to go to the doctor.  She had to get some blood work done.  Than we ate lunch at Ryans with her dad.  I will see her on wednesday probably early.  Because I hope to do a little shopping with her.  I will be back here on thursday afternoon probably.  

Today I haven't done really much.  I spent almost all saturday night.  Getting my stuff in.  Which I over did myself.  I learned that I couldn't do that again.  Tomorrow after I come home from Thomson.  I will do more work.  I hope to get it all done.  I'm not really going through everything.  Just trying to get everything I need in place.  I'm sitting in this room and it's freezing.  The door to the room was taken off by my brother now.  I think he took it off. Because he got tired of having to close it or something.  It doesn't make sence why he took the door off.  So I had something over the door with the heater on.  To keep it warm, but I took it off.  I am going to find something else. But until than, it's freezing in this room.  And it won't do no good to turn the heater on.   I am very COLD haha.  So I'm going to run here.  

I will add that I had a good christmas.  I got a doll from Leann's parents.  I got a candle package from my Uncle David & Aunt Denise.  Leann & Dennis gave me a shirt and some kind of body wash stuff in a little purse.  I'm expecting to get something else tomorrow from Leann's aunt.  I was going to visit south georgia last week.  I did and didn't want to go.  I just didn't want to go without Leann.  I didn't want to stay that long.  Plus I didn't think about the packing until later.  Anyways I spent Christmas day with Leann.  I really had a good time.  We played monopoly.  And darn it she beat me  AGAIN! ARCH! 

I will make up some updates next week to my official site.  Things are going slow, because I really don't have alot of time.  But I will make some major updates soon.  There is a fourm now with the site. I hope that many of you that visit my journal will join the fourm.  I also would like to say..... 

I came so close of getting to go pay my respects to the god-father of  SOUL  Mr.  James Brown.  The James brown Arena isn't to far from me. I wish I could have gotton to attend.  It would have been so great.  I didn't know alot about him.  But I did like his music.  I really like his performance in Blues brothers.   

We learned on the 17 of Decmeber that Leann is going to have a beautiful baby girl.  Her name will be Deanna Marie.  Congrats to Lee-Lee my sister:) She is now 5 months pregnant!:)

I will make a sweet entry on the 3rd of January for MATT ROSS.  My Dream hubby:)  

Matt Ross will be 37.  And doesn't look it.    Oh  I will also post it on  the photo album.  And the offcial site!!!! 

Goodnight to all  

And Happy New Year!!!! 

Regards &  Groetjes, 

~ROS~

Yeah, It's been along time, since I have been here.  A very long time. And lots of things have happened.  Thanksgiving has just past as we all know.  I did have a great halloween,  I went with Leann to a party.  We had a good time.  As for the past months.  Something personal, that I can't disclosed has been going on.  And just when I think things are getting better they get worse.  I only hope that they will get better.  Whatever this is, I do hope it will end.  With Christmas coming.  I hope to see everything better. 

I didn't have a very good thanksgiving,  I mean I had a good thanksgiving and I didn't. The holidays are not going the way I had planned.  Thanksgiving I was home,  My grandma and my dad came.  But we didn't do anything.  I got some egg nog.  I figure I have something to celebrate the holiday with.  I drank it out of a wine glass.  Nope I didn't have any acho in it.  Last week was  a bad week for me.  Some  things were said by this ex-friend of mine.  A friend that went around thinkin that she was all that.  And who I thought was a good friend.  I met this friend several months ago on JMB.  I wish not to go into all the details, Since I would probably be typing all afternoon here.  But the thing is,  Is this girl went around hinting about some people that were close friends of mine.  I tend to stay out of situations that I had no part of,  Or don't know what happen or etc.  But when a close friend (s).  Are being talked about, not in so many words.  It does concern me, And it does make me mad.  Anyways I confronted the friend about it.  She had nothing to say, She never replied, Never emailed me, I hear  nothing.  We were both a member of this Jaws Message Board.  It was called OpOcra.  Anyways she is not woman enough to handle her own battles.  Or speck to me rationally. She sends her MOD to do it for her.  So all week I get nothing but harsing emails.  Where I have to transfur everything in that emil account.  To another account.  I was drained and wrecked all last week.  Turns out this MOD of hers. Happens to be a poster on the main Jaws fourm.  And He was emailing me talking bad about close friends of mine.  Everyone knew it was him.  But he kept denying that he was the person.  When there had been proof that he was in several cases. I had to block the freak from emailing me.  He was so DESPRET to get a ilogical point across.  He creates another email account. And emails me with another harsing email.  And than another one.  So I turned it over to a good friend.  The matter was settled.  But not for this Guy he goes on his fourm.  Which is known as Oporca.  He creates a topic about it.  Listing our names in the topic. Plus  what I really think is funny.  Is he bans me over the girl that I don't like.  He came up with all these excuses.  I don't care if he ban me or not.  I know the truth and as well as others know.   That site is ran by that girl.  She is supposly happiley married.  But flirts with all the guys on that site. According to a friend, That most of the board members on that site.  Are the same person, Except for a few others.  It means **** to me that I got ban.  Why?  Because I'm member of so many. And I'm liked by all of them.  And the sad thing about it.  Is I lost 2 or 3 good friends over that bitch.  They really don't know the facts.  They just want to take her side. And take her side of the story.   But it's okey, That goes to show you how true friends they really are.  

Anyways, getting to more importnant things here....  I will be moving at the end of december this year.  I am moving back home with my grandma.  To save money.  I moved here back in April of this year.  For the past months I have been stressed and tired.  The rent is too high.  And I can't afford to get the things I need.  And as alot of you know. That I plan to take a trip to holland next year.  I am working on this as of right now.  I can't wait for next year.  I will get to meet Robert.  Today I have put up my tree and a few christmas decorations.  I will buy something for my door. And maybe a few other things tomorrow.  I have so much to do tomorrow.  Today is the last day of the month.  I thought they were going to do inspection. Like they always do the last thurday of the month.  But I guess not.  

I have made some updates to my site.  I have brought back My Matt Ross site. And I have made it very big now.  I also plan rebuild other sites.  I will do this soon, and take a leave of absence.   There is just alot going on in my life. That has lately made me ill.  And that has made me sad.  I just wish things would get better.  Because I as of now I feel very lost.  I just wish this would all leave me.  So like I stated above whoever you are, Save the warnings for someone who is not broke okey? 

All I can say is I hope in time that things will be brighter and sweetier.  It will be better I know it will!:)  I watched Rose Red the other night. I haden't seen it in so long.  As everyone knows I love that movie.  It's a great movie.  I will probably watch it again soon here.  I just love EMERY!:) Well just 1 more month and the 6th season for 24 will be on.  I can't wait for this.  Because I have waited months for this.   It's really going to be a great season..  

Well I think I will go get some late breakfast or some lunch....  Than I will probably work on my site.  There isn't nothing on tv around this time of the day.  other than soaps. And I'm not spending the rest of my afternoon watching soaps....:S  

Hope everyone had a great thanksgiving, I will try to add another entry in a few days!  

~ROS~

Today was a sweet day, Today Leann her hubby and I went to the doctor. She had her first check-up.  The next 2 we will all find out if it's going to be a boy or a girl.  I sence that it's going to be a boy.  It was so sweet being there.  She was so happy I was there with her.  Where else would I be? I'll always be there for her. And If she ever needs me for anything.  She knows she can count on me. Yesterday I was at her house all day.  She was taking care of a friend's child. And we went over to see our friend Gypsy. She had to gather up her halloween stuff. She took over there for the party.  Than we went to mom & dad's house.  And stayed there for a few mins.  Than last night, We went to see her inlaws.  I really like them.  They are sweet & loving people.  They always enjoy my company.  Anyways today was a special day.  I was so happy to be there with her. 

I am very tired tonight.  Leann couldnt' sleep last night.  Because she was so anxious and excited about going to the doctor.  See she and everyone thought,  She would have twins.  But she is only pregnant with one.  So I stayed up with her.  Finally around 2am.  We go to sleep.  And had to get up early.  So I am very tired and fixing to go to my bed.  Prehaps I'll sleep to 12 am lol.  I just can't keep my eyes open.  And I'm hurting a bit.  It's that time again.  Where women have to suffer.  And men...... Well they claim they just have the symphony pains.... I call that BS lmao:P 

Somehow, I don't know how it happen.  But I did something to my back.  And when I bend over.  There's  a sharp pain in my lower back.  I never had this type of pain before. So I don't know what is causing it.  So I am going to lay down.  I just don't feel good.  And I need a little rest.  I probably take a nap.  And get up and watch a movie.  I don't know I just might sleep.  And wake up and work more on my website.  I made a big update on my gb site.  And I want to work on it some more.  Because tomorrow, I need to clean my apartment.  

All it has done today is rain and rain..... And I thought about Rob all day.  Well everyday lol.  I'm always thinking about him.  I miss him and I wish I could hold him.  So as I go to sleep, I'm going to try to dream of him.  

Well it was a sweet day.  And being there with my sister was the sweetiest thing.  I am so happy for her and her hubby. 

I miss you my sweet friend.....  And your always on my mind.  

Groetjes

Ros

It probably wouldn't seem that way to you.  But friday night I went to bed late. And had to get up early. A friend of me & Lee-Lee's  was giving a halloween party.  Which was on the 21th. Well the party was at 7pm.  But we had to be there early to help decorate.  It was fun, I had a great time.  But by the time the party had started. I was very tired.  I dozed off a couple of times while sitting on the couch.  Anyways I helped do Gypsy ( our friends) dress.  I actually finished it. Than I painted this hand orange.  Gypsy helped me with that.  Than before than, We had to go to wall-mart to do other things.  I had to pick up some stuff.  It seems like everytime I go shopping. I end up forgetting to get something, That I really need.  Anyways I forgot to get some pepper. I guess I will pick some up later on.  Lets see at the party which started 30 mins after it was supossed to start. We all ate spaeggei, there were patato cassrole, Some kind of dip with chips.  The dip was really good. Along with the cookies.  Than we played this game haha never ever lol.  Than we were all outside.  Gypsy is into Pyro Teque.  It's amazing.. I wish I could do it.  But see, I be afraid I burn myself.  And I just couldn't do it.  But to watch it. And see them do amazing tricks and stunts is awsome.  We were out there this past tuesday, At Riverwalk.  And Lee-Lee & Dennis and I were there and watched them perform.  It was great being there and it was just awsome. Afterwards we all went to the cotton patch.  I felt really grown sitting up at the bar lol.  Nah, I didn't drink no beer.  I don't like beer.  But I don't look 25, So to some people.  They think "Well hey she's too young.  But It was late when we got there. So there wasn't anyone there. Which I was certainly glad.  I hope to go out there next tuesday to watch Gypsy practice again.  It was fun:) 

In the News: 

I am very happy now.. for the first time in many months.  I feel like I have more imbition and a boose in my life.  I see a great future for me.  And prehaps later on a future with Rob.  That's all I will say with that.  I shall let time take it's course and see what happens.  I am going to give it all to god.  And let him take us in whatever direction we should be in.  

Something sure isn't right here.... 

Okey I really don't know what HER problem is.  I won't say any names.  But a friend of mine that i have known for ages.  I don't really know if it is something that I did or what.  But every time I log on to msn messenger.  And if she is on the messenger.  It seems like when she sees me come online she logs offline.  I don't get this, And this has happen twice or three times.  I mean normally when I log on to msn.  I don't speck to people right than.  And if she was so afraid that I was going to im her.  Than she is wrong,  I really don't know what is wrong with her.  Eversince high school ended.  She has changed,  And it seems to me, She doesn't even count me as a friend period.  I sent her a card for her birthday.  She sends me a greeting on my space.  And that's it, I mean that was sweet of her.  But she didn't say anything in the greeting.  Just the greeting and that's it.  I thought that I was more than just some friend she knew on my space.  You see I've know this girl for over 13 years.  And everytime I try to get together with her.  There is always something going on.  And this has been going on for 5 years. So I always be there for her. And a good friend.  But you know the thing is.  Everyone thinks "Well Amanda will be around, she's not going anywhere.  Well Amanda isn't going to be around forever.  And if your reading this.  You need to know that I am NOT going to be just sticking around.  If that's what you are thinking.  Than you need to stop.  Because I am not.  I want to have a life of my own.  And wherever god takes me is where I will go.   

Anyways it's very late here.  And I need some rest.  

Ros

It's wednesday night.  I have been sick for 3 days.  I think it's a virus of some kind.  Probably the weather changing.  I haven't updated my journal in awhile here.  I never have time to do it.  And sometimes I just don't feel like it.  Anyways I updated a litte on my site.  But not to much.  I hope that I will be over the virus before the weekend.  If not than I will go to my doctor next week.  I don't know my head feels heavy.  And I feel like I'm going to faint.  It all started with my throat.  I was having to clear it several times yesterday.  Than this morning I start coughing very hard.  I've been coughing hard all day.  Anyways I had taken some cough drops & cough syrup.  It helps a tiny bit. But not enough. I only hope that my doctor won't fill me up with antiobics that make me sleep all the time.  Or she doesn't put me into the hosiptal.  Well in just about 2 more weeks. It will be my birthday.  I haven't really desided what I will do.  I will probably take my driving lic test.  And spend the day with My Friend Yvette and Leann.  I hope to post another entry long before October 6,2006.   I also hope that I get a e-card from someone.  I hope someone will remember my birthday... 

Well I know this is short.  But I'm very tired and sleeply.  So I am off to the bed!  

Groetjes & Regards

Roslee

Well It's been a long...long time.  Since I've updated my journal.  I have been busy and the past weeks. I wasn't feeling well.  But here I am alive and well.  I have been making alot of updates to my site.  Lately I haven't really done much.  Just didn't have the strenght to do anything.  And lately I've been having sleeping problems. I can't seem to find rest.  Oh well I will find it soon.  Properly tonight around midnight. I will get very tired and go to bed.  Tomorrow I have some errands to do.  Or I will catch up on my house work.  September I go back to the dermintoglist and I'm not actually ready to go back yet.  So I got to get myself ready for this appointment.  October I plan to have a party the weekend for my birthday.  And I hope that some of my friends will come.  Because it would be great to catch up on old times.  For Christmas I plan to send Robert something. And than I'm going to washington D.C. I want to visit Georgetown.  I plan to see the Exorcist filming locations. I saw on the jaws message board how a friend went there.  And it really doesn't look no different than back in 1973.  So I really  REALLY want to go! I just have to save up properly in september to go.  Well I got my hair cut.  I wasn't too happy about it.  Anyways it had to be cut.  Because I would shead and shead. And there was no stopping it.  And it wasn't evening. So I cut alot off.  And I hope that when it grows back out that it will be even and it will look right.  I'm not cutting it again.  Well I will trime it but that is it.  I like long hair.  Because it makes me look younger and I look more prettier.  

My Grandma had to go a few weeks ago to the doctor about her heart.  She seems to be doing fine. But I'm still worried about her. And I miss her alot.  Anyways lately I've been doing great except can't find rest.  This morning I didn't go to bed until almost 11 am.  I layed down around 6 something am.  And I couldn't rest.  I had so much energy that I had to get up and use that energy.  so by 11 I was so tired and sleeply.  I slept to almost 3pm.  When I did get up I was tired lol.  Anyways I was going to bed tonight around 9pm. But I desided I come and update my journal. 

Anyways for the trip to Washington D.C.  I think I will try to get my dad to go with me.  I think it would be great for him.  To get away.  I got to talk to him about it first and see what he says.  He will properly like it.  Lately I have been drinking nothing but water.  And the good news is that when I eat.  I don't gain.  That water pushes out all that fat in the food out of my body. And that's a good thing.   because I don't want to gain lol.  

Well in 2 months I will be 25!  Don't laugh guys & gals but I've been listening to the New kids lately.  I haven't heard there music in years.  Well over what 15 years.  And I still remember singing and dancing to the songs. 
I hope all is doing well!  And I'm fixing to go to bed!  so tired!  I can't get the video to come up. 

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Regards & Groetjes, 

Amanda A.K.A Roslee 

Song of the month

Please don't go girl ( Favorite 80s song)  



We've been together for a long time baby
Do you have to leave

Please don't go girl 
I just can't live without you
Please don't go girl 
I still miss you 
Don't go girl 

Please don't go girl 
you ruin my whole world 
Tell me you'll stay 
Never ever go away 
I love you 
I guess i always will 
Girl......
Your my best friend 
Girl....
Your my loving thing 
I just want you to know 
That I will always love you 

Oh baby..................................

Tell me you'll stay 
Never ever go away 
I need you 
I guess I always will 
Girl............................. 
Your my best friend
Girl... 
Your my loving thing 
I just want you to know 
That I will always love you 

Oh baby.... 

Please don't go girl 
I'm gonna always love you girl 

I'm gonna love you girl 
To the end of time 
Tell me girl, Your gonna always be mine 

Please don't go girl 
You ruin my whole world 
Tell me you'll stay 
And never ever go away 
I love you 
I guess I always will 
Girl..................................
Your my best friend 
Girl...... 
Your my loving thing 
I just want you to know 
That I will always love you 

Oh baby...

Don't go girl 
Please don't go girl 

Please don't go girl 
Please don't go girl 
Please don't go baby 
Please don't go girl 
Please don't go girl 
Please don't go darling 
Please don't go baby no.... 

Please don't go girl..... 

Ghostbusters turns 22 years!!! 22 years ago Last week ghostbusters celebrated for 22 years.  In another 3 years it will be the 25th anniversary.  I hope that sony will release some great ghostbuster merchadise.  Or a great dvd pack with great features and bounis material on it.  So from me to many other fans  Hello and let's keep ghostbusters alive for another 22 years!:)  

The week is now starting,  Yesterday I was in thomson all day.  I finally went to thomson to get my medcine.  The day before yesterday I hardly got any sleep.  So last night after taking a shower and taking my medicine I was very sleeply.  So I was in bed around 9:30.  And got up this morning around 6:30 am.  So I had great sleep.  haha still didn't want to get up this morning.  Anyways I don't know if it was the medicine I took last night or I was just that sleeply. I couldn't keep my eyes open.  Well my grandma was with me.  And we wasn't in the wally world to long.  We went over to see some good friends of hers.  We stayed there an hour.  Than I came home.  I got me some cookie's & cream ice cream yesterday along with some Reeses pieces yesterday.  Nothing but fatting and junk!  lol  I won't be doing this again.  That messes up my diet.  I am fixing to start taking my medicine for this morning.  I'm sitting here listening to my favorite.... yep the 80s.  Today I got to wash clothes. And I hope to get this apartment cleaned.  I don't know yet.  I am going to try to get these clothes done today.  My hamper is pilling up lol.  


Happy Birthday Ghostbusters!!

Save tonight 
Fight the break of dawn 
Come tomorrow, 
Tomorrow I'll be gone 
Save tonight .....  

Dan Aykroyd : Man of Blues   (Co-Creater of ghostbusters )

         

Updates to my official site will be made soon!:)  

Groetjes 

-R
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Ray Parker Jr. 
Ghostbusters 
The Orginal Soundtrack 

(Ghostbusters)

If there's something strange
In your neighborhood
Who you gonna call
(Ghostbusters)
If there's something weird
And it don't look good
Who you gonna call
(Ghostbusters)

I ain't afraid of no ghost
I ain't afraid of no ghost

If you're seeing things
Running through your head
Who can you call
(Ghostbusters)
An invisible man
Sleeping in your bed
Oh, who you gonna call
(Ghostbusters)

I ain't afraid of no ghost
I ain't afraid of no ghost

Who you gonna call
(Ghostbusters)
If you're all alone
Pick up the phone
And call
(Ghostbusters)

I ain't afraid of no ghost
I hear it likes the girls
I ain't afraid of no ghost
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Who you gonna call
(Ghostbusters)
If you've had a dose
Of a freaky ghost
Maybe you'd better call
(Ghostbusters)

Let me tell you something
Bustin' makes me feel good

I ain't afraid of no ghost
I ain't afraid of no ghost

Don't get caught alone, oh no
(Ghostbusters)
When it comes through your door
Unless you just want some more
I think you better call
(Ghostbusters)
Ow

Who you gonna call
(Ghostbusters)
Who you gonna call
(Ghostbusters)
Ah, I think you better call
(Ghostbusters)...

Jaws No Fest 2006 was a blast for all the fans that attended in Mass on May 31th 2006.  I really wanted to be there.  But I hope to attend the 35th anniversary of No Fest!!!  For more information and pictures of No Fest 2006.  Go too www.jawsmovie.com .   This is the picture of 2006 No Fest Shirt! The shirt is available at www.jawscollector.com .  Order Now why they are available. 

I have had a good week.  Not much to say here only that I'm finally free of the witch from hell.  Well at least I hope I am.  That's all I say about that.  We had an outage here.  My connection to the internet was going in and out.  But it has been fixed.  Everything seems to be working correctly.  Monday I went to the doctor to see the doctor about my skin problem.  I go to see a speciallist the 21th of the month.  To determine what the problem.  Maybe the medicine I am getting soon will help with the skin problem I am having.  This weekend I hope to wash clothes and clean the apartment.  I have been working out alot lately and I hope to work out tonight again.  This morning I got up early and took me a shower and started cleaning my room.  The cable man came today to check out the modem.  Alot of areas including mine was out.  So my modem was responding very slow he said.  So he took the plate off the cable plug in.  If he doesn't come back by tonight. I am going to put it back on.  I wish and wish I could go swiming...  The sea would be nice or the ocean.  But I would have to look out for the sharks!  Hopefully I get to go swiming very soon!

Anyways I'm going to make my bed and wash dishes!!!   

Catch yall later!  

oh and before you go back into the water.....   watch  Jaws..................






Tell me why 
     I love you like I do 
Tell me who 
    Can stop my heart has much as you 
Tell me all of your secrets 
    And I'll tell you most of mine 
They say nobody's perfect 
    Well that's really true this time 
I don't have the answers 
     I don't have a plan 
All i have you, So darling help me understand 
      
What we do 
    You can whisper in my ear 
Where we go 
      Who know's what happens after here 
Let's take each other's hand 
       And We jumpin' to the final frontier 
I'm mad about you, baby! 
I'm mad about you 

Groetjes 

ROSLEE

Today Jaws no fest starts.  And I sure wish I could be there at Martha Vineyard to gather with all the great fans of Jaws.  Instead I didn't have the money to go.  But maybe one day I get to go.  Who knows with my sweetie.  That would be great.  It's 7:30 pm.  And I thought I come and update my journal.  I'm fixing to watch a movie I guess.  There isn't much to do.  And I am quite bored.  My good friend from the site is there.  Along with some funny people from the site.  Well Next year I have a trip to plan.  And I'm having to save for that trip.  Tomorrow I got alot of errands to do.  It's that time again for bills and etc.  My Best friend's birthday is June 3.  So I got to send her a card.  And get my sweetie something sweet.  He sent me something so sweet.  So I'm wanting to do something sweet for him.  Today is Leann's birthday.  I am hoping she has had a great day.  Yesterday I did alot of work.  I rearrange the bedroom.  Well all I did was bring my nightstand to the other side.  It's looks nice and better now.  I got this big closet in my living room.  And I wanted to keep it empty.  So I can store it with other stuff when the time comes.   I am hoping by this month or next month.  We go to flordia.  I don't know yet.  But hopefully I can go swiming and sailing.  I can't wait to see the indiana Jones attraction.  This will be so great to see that.  And get to ride on the jaws ride.  

This October for my birthday I have desided that I may visit the zoo.  Or spend a couple hours at the beach or just buy dinner and be here.  I don't know I want to have a big party.  But I won't have the money to throw a big party.  Next year will be the party lol.   It sure will I will be with someone sweet!  I will be 26 and it will be great!  I will be with my sweetie.   Well This is short but I am going to watch a movie.  And Properly go read later.  Might finish reading my "I am Spock -Leonard Nimoy"  book and than go to sleep! 

Goodnight to all!!!!   

And to all No Festers!!!!    HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Groetjes

ROSLEE

It's been a long time... I have been here and there.  I mostly been home lately.  I went to a banque a week ago.  With my grandma we had a good time.  The food was very tasteful.  I was got myself in the habit of trying something and seeing if I like it.  Lately I haven't been getting good sleep.  Or I haven't tried to go to sleep.  I've been staying up playing my nancy drew game.  That I have played properly a thousand times lol.  Or watching tv. Tonight I was watching blues brothers.  I watched half of it.  And I think I will start the movie over tomorrow morning and rewatch it.  I felt like exercising tonight.  Like I'm supossed to do every day.  I've been drinking alot of water lately.  I rather drink water it seems more now than ever.  I clean my house today.  I am going to do the kitchen tomorrow.  And than take a nice shower.  I took some pictures of my apartment for a friend.  So I hope I can get those pictures developed real soon.  I hope to see my family really soon.  Another friend invited me to McDonalds on saturday. We are going to get together and talk.  But the thing is.  I don't know how I am going to get there lol.  I wish I had a car.  I hope I can get me my lics one day.  Maybe I can start working on getting my learners lics this summer.  I have such big news about this summer.  I hope to visit Orlando Flordia.  I plan to visit The Indiana Jones attraction and Try out the Jaws Ride.  I also hope I can do some sailing while I'm down there.  I'm hoping that I have a great summer.  I'm still have alot of bug problems in my apartment.  They said that spayed.  But I keep seeing bugs.  So Maybe next week I'm going to talk with the landlord personally that is in thomson.  And ask her if this apartment has been sprayed.  Because I don't think it has.  I have got into the habit again.  Of eating at the table.  I think eating at the table is wise.  Because you don't have to worry about getting good particals on the floor.  And I like eating at the table.  

Well I'm supossed to see my doctor I don't know when.  My grandma hasn't gotton back with me on that. I'm hoping to see her soon.  Well ya know it's 11:15 pm and I think I'm going to get ready for bed.  I'm really tired.  

Oh I hear Matt Ross is guest starring in alot of eps on HBO "Big Love"  I wish I had HBO, Than I could watch the show every week.  But I guess I'll have to get into the series.  And maybe I'll try to buy the eps.  As of right now.  I'm more interested in buying 24 seasons.  I am so amazed at the series now.  I wonder how the season finali is going to end.  I can't wait for next week.   

I love this song below... don't ask me me why. 


"Take these broken wings...  And learn to fly again. Learn to live so free, when we hear the voices sing.  The book of love will open up and let us in. Take these broken wings. You got to learn to fly. Learn to live and love so free. When we hear the voices sing. The book of love will open up and let us in........  Yeah...... Yeah......Yeah......."

It's been a long time since I have been here.  I had a good weekend.  Saturday Leann and I went to augusta to get a honny baked ham.  And we got lost trying to find the place lol.  We came back and spent some time with her mom and her dad.  Than we went to a dinner with her husband's family.  It was a good dinner. I ate very light at this one. Because I had another dinner I was going to be attending the following evening.  My grandmother's birthday was that evening.  I called her and wished her a happy birthday. I resently learned that she was in a terrible accident. Alot of sad things has been happening.  Her car was total.  But She is okey.  She is just not doing well right now. But hopefully she will be doing better soon.  Well Sunday I went to church with Leann.  Than I spent the day with Leann's mom.  Than we all went to the dinner.  And I was stuffed.  But I can assure you it payed off.   We played a game of poker after the dinner and the easter egg hunt.  I was feeling very weak and tired. Just as I am feeling now.  I won two rounds with Leann's help lol.  No I'm not a poker expert.  But It was fun.  I later came home.  And the next morning to my surprized I came down with one hell of a virus.  I was going back and fourth to the bathroom on and off. Until this morning around 12:15 am.  It finally ended.  As for me feeling weak and so tired.  That hasn't changed. I had a very high tempture I believe of 104.  I was very cold.  I slept most of monday.  I just couldn't stay awake.  My Grandma was supossed to be coming but she didn't.  And I was glad. Because I was so sick. And I felt so afful.  As for today I was feeling pretty much the same. Weak and sleeply and so tired.  My head was stuffy just as yesterday.  The good news is I didn't have a tempture I don't believe.  Leann came by today and wanted me to go with her to her ballgame. And I told her I just couldn't.  I wasn't feeling good at all. Turns out that Dennis her husband had the same symptons.  I think his was worse.  But She understood my reasons for not going.  Sunday night my muscles and my joints were not right.  I guess that was signs of the virus coming.  Because I'm better with that today. 

Well I want to wish everyone a happy belated Easter!!  I wasn't home on easter until late at night. And I didn't feel like making a entry.  I hope everyone had a great easter.   My sweet friend has been looking out for me in my time of need.  And I am very grateful to him.  

Well It's after 10pm. I need to wash a load of dishes lol and get ready for my Star Trek and go to bed!  

Goodnight & Live thy long and thy prosper!!!  

Groetjes

ROSLEE

I thought I would update my journal here.  Not much going on here only that I am very sad. I wish not to disclosed why I am sad. It is personal. But I will mention that the apartment is in order.  I mention a few weeks ago. That I moved into a new apartment I hope that this will be the last one I move into for awhile.  The blinds are up.  Believe it or not I really didn't know how to install blinds. But I learned quickly how to do it.  So now I know how.  It is wednesday night and I am here all alone by myself. I hope this week or next week I can get in touch with my family. I have some things I need to do next week.  I have some shopping I will need to do either the end of the week or weekend.  I was feeling sick sunday threw yesterday. I am feeling much better now.  Leann has been here just about everday since I moved in. It's good that she is coming by like she is. I really enjoy her company.  I hope to get out of the house tomorrow.  I need to get out.  I'm just worried and scared.  My life isn't going the way I wanted. Only if I had used my head years ago and did things differently.  I have some regreats and than I don't.  If it wasn't for the internet. I wouldn't have known my sweet friend.  And I wouldn't have the happiness that I have now.  But I just feel sad and so emotional.  Next month my mom will be deceased for 12 years.  I am not sad about that. 

Well the apartment looks very nice.  all i have to do now is  up the printer & scanner.  And the valcuming and sweeping and mopping. I haven't gotton around to that. Because of my sadness.  The valcumn cleaner will not work right.  Everytime I try to use it. It does nothing but put out blue fuz on the floor.  So when I see my dad again. I am going to give it back to him. And properly borrow my grandma's until I can get one.  I want to say hello to everyone and not to worry about me. I am fine and I will be fine.  I am just lonesome and I miss my friend.  And of course I am sad.  but in the next few days I hope things will get better.  

This is a short entry because I am very sad.  But I will add another entry in a few days.  I'm going to go watch tv.  And than properly go to bed.

Hello to all my friends 

This saturday is my grandma's birthday!!  I will also add a entry for her birthday!  

groetjes

ROSLEE